Log in

No account? Create an account
bird poops on plum branch


Buster Benson

No advice column.

Previous Entry Share Next Entry
new goal: be thorough
bird poops on plum branch
Life is change.  You have to learn to love the great futility and the great hope at the same time because they're the same thing.  Sometimes you know who you are, sometimes you don't.  I can only hope that I know who I am during periods of extreme change, or else I risk slipping back into a previous, worse, version of myself.  I don't want to do years over.  My life right now is an exercise in being thorough.  Being thorough through change.  Seeing things through.  Keeping things in perspective even as they raise to astronomical heights or dismal lows.  It's not what you do but how you do it, and what the thing you do brings out in you.  Failure is only bad if it brings out your bad qualities.  Success is only good if it brings out your good qualities.  This is my newest found truth.

I can't change people, and I can't repair every thing that I've ever damaged.  I'm responsible for myself primarily and everyone else secondarily.  I need to make sure I take care of the people around me to the best of my ability, while giving them the space they need to take care of themselves.  I have a tendency to carry people into crazy schemes that I know I can handle, but which ask a terrible lot from the people I carry in.  I'm sorry if I'm asking/have asked too much from you or anyone else out there.

It's going to be an interesting second half of the year and that much is for certain.  Eye on the prize, eye on the prize.  The the prize is the ability to sleep at night with a sound mind, and the ability to wake up in the morning with bigger and bigger and always bigger dreams.

  • 1
"Failure is only bad if it brings out your bad qualities. Success is only good if it brings out your good qualities."

i need to remember this.

Yeah. I think this is what makes people so afraid of failure. Because it has this ability to bring out the worst in us. But if you can flip that mental switch that people do in the movies that turns problems into projects, and brings excitement to difficulty, then it ain't so bad!

And, how many times have people succeeded at what they strove for only to become worse people!

Not for us, not for us.

just as long as those dreams aren't about the love of your life turning out to be a nazi spy!

he told me that my cyanide capsule was a dud. i was crushed.

He told me that my cyanide capsule was a dud. I was crushed.

That's an awesome story. Best I've read in a long time. You should submit it to one of those micro-fiction contests.

I always have a hard time spelling thorough.

i am feeling slightly panicked today about being carried into a crazy scheme, but i think those feelings are ok and good. i got so worried about our future that i maybe cried a little, i maybe drove on the highway thinking what'll i do what'll i do what'll i do, but you know. things will work out. it's just an off day, i guess.

  • 1